day 3: your first love
to be honest, i wasn't really looking forward to this post. why you ask? i'm currently going through the whole process of trying to get over that special someone - this person is my first love. i've known him for eight years, and he has consistently been in my life until recently. this was the person i thought i'd eventually marry and have a family with. at least those were the plans. but, some things don't always work out the way we want them too. sometimes there's a bigger plan. right? yeah, that's what they say. i'm not going to lie and say this is easy writing this, because it isn't. everyday, i get a little stronger and don't cry as much. i know eventually, i'll be able to look back at us, and smile at the times we shared. but right now, all i feel is heartache. we have so many memories together and i will always cherish them. part of me feels, i shouldn't feel sad or miss him...because he's the one that didn't have faith in our relationship. i shouldn't want to be with someone like that. i shouldn't want to be with someone who isn't willing to put the same amount of time and effort into something that i am. he is a good guy, but i guess he's just not the guy for me. and with that, i will move on and take what i learned from this experience and focus on me! i will give myself time to get over him. because bringing old baggage into something new just isn't cute. i'm sure when He knows i'm ready, someone perfect will come into my life and i will no longer dwell on what was.
woke up late today,
and i could still feel the sting of pain,
but i brushed my teeth anyway.
got dressed through the mess, and
put a smile on my face.
i got a little bit stronger.
- sara evans