30 things every women should have or know by 30

{I'm 25, so I guess I got five more years...}

By 30, you should have:

1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who reminds you of how far you've come.
2. A decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family.
3. Something perfect to wear if the employer or man of your dreams wants to see you in an hour.
4. A purse, a suitcase, and an umbrella you're not ashamed to be seen carrying.
5. A youth you're content to move beyond.
6. A past juicy enough that you're looking forward to retelling it in your old age.
7. The realization that you are actually going to have an old age- and some money set aside to help fund it.
8. An e-mail address, a voice mailbox, and a bank account - all of which nobody has access to but you.
9. A resume that is not even the slightest bit padded.
10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you cry.
11. A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill and a black lace bra.
12. Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself, just because you deserve it.
13. The belief that you deserve it.
14. A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine and a plan for dealing with those few facets of life that don't get better after 30.
15. A solid start on a satisfying career, a satisfying relationship and all those other facets of life that do get better.

By 30, you should know:

1. How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2. How you feel about kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5, How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn't like to happen next.
6. The names of: the secretary of state, your great-grandmother and the best tailor in town.
7. How to live alone, even if you don't like to.
8. How to take control of your own birthday.
9. That you can't change the length of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents.
10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over.
11. What you would and wouldn't do for money or love.
12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs or not flossing for very long.
13. Who you can trust, who you can't and why you shouldn't take it personally.
14. Not to apologize for something that isn't your fault.
15. Why they say life begins at 30.

- Pamela Redmond Satran

can i get a do-over?

some say change is good. i don't agree with those people. well, sort of. i want change, but i want certain things in my life to remain. i've never been one to walk away easily from a situation i've put my whole heart into. where i am now is in result of the mistakes i've made or things i did or didn't do. why didn't i do certain things to avoid where i am now? because i didn't know things would come to this. maybe because i took for granted what i had. maybe i never pictured that person not being in my life again. so many maybes, too many maybes...i hate maybes. comfort is an easy cop out...we do the same things because its comfortable, we stay in certain situations because there comfortable, but whatever happened to just wanting to be with that person because you feel their the one? the one that knows you a little to well, the one who's seen you mature into a beautiful person, the person who's always had your heart, the person that always makes you smile, the person that makes you feel safe, the one person that you could never stay mad at for too long. you don't meet this person twice. you don't have the same feelings for someone else. everything else is new - new person and new feelings. we all struggle with ourselves, each other...relationships aren't easy all the time. i'm not ready to throw off the boxing gloves just yet. sometimes you gotta fight for what you want. fight until you can't anymore. you just can't make people feel the way you do, but gosh it would be nice. sometimes i wish, i had some super power and you could see inside me...see my broken heart, my thoughts, my true feelings...my everything. change is a hard process. i know, i'm preaching to the choir. i'm not ready for change at this point in my life. i'm not one to regret, but for the first time i regret not doing what i truly felt for the last couple months. i regret taking things for granted. i regret not standing my ground and making it clear, this is it. were gonna do it. were gonna make this work. people make decisions of their own, but ultimately He has the say so in what happens. that explains why this person has been in my life for so long. regardless, of everything we've been through i still care for this person a lot and still want them in my life. the feeling of them no longer being there is just unbearable. its gut-wrenching and makes me sick to my stomach. sometimes, i hate being a woman and caring so darn much. i wish the changes i'm going through in general would be under different circumstances. it would make things a lot easier, but hey, who said life's easy right!although, change is here...i wish it would go away.

can i get a do-over?

caution...bachelorette party in progress!!!

these are the few photos i could post, so enjoy!

{tasty lolly pops for the bridal party}

{here comes the bride all dressed in white}

{we're the life of the party. it's a hard job, but somebodies gotta do it}

{beauitful bridesmaid, gorgegous bride and lovely maid of honor}

{he liked it so he put a ring on it, so we're celebrating her last night as a single gal}

{check out those specials...shots were not my friend that night}

{after a long night, jimmy johns was the only man we had eyes for}

{the only action i got all night. thanks ladies}


bachelorette party was a succuss! score!

now, countdown to the alter for the love birds.

i'll need a tissue box, for the bride of course! {wink wink}

Blushing pink bridal shower.

{Candy table filled with pink candy made by yours truly}

{pink cupcakes, yum yum}


{strawberries and creamy cool chocolate fondue}


{the gorgeous blushing bride herself}


{couple of friends, bridal party, and the beautiful bride}


{bridesmaids and maid of honor -> me}


last weekend, as the official duty of the maid of honor; i threw one of my best friends a bridal shower, and whew am i glad its finally over. i put a lot of blood, sweat and tears into making this day very special for her because she's one of my best friends and i care for her dearly. the theme of the party was pink, obviously for the blushing brides favorite color and she absolutely loved it. i created the pink candy table and it was a hit! especially for the bride since she has such a sweet tooth. she always has candy for me when i come over. {such a bad influence she is}

overall, the shower was a success and the bride enjoyed herself. now, this weekend her family members are throwing her a bridal shower, and were also going out for her bachelorette party! boy, am i ready to get all dolled up, drink way too much and make the bride wear a bunch of penis stuff.


have a good weekend, kids.

so live your life {hey, ayy, ayy, ayy}

oh september, why you gotta have so many birthdays?

{have your cake and eat it too}

so, i'd like to give a special shout out to my family members

whom celebrate birthdays during this lovely month...

.:H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y:.

{drum roll pleeassee}

to....

dad - Sept. 2nd

mom - Sept. 3rd

sister - Sept. 6th

cousin - Sept. 24th

goddaughter - Sept. 25th

too many dang birthdays right, i mean they could have picked another month to be born :)

happy born day to my loves!

hope your day is filled with joy.

lord, please make me a bird, so i can fly, far far away...