Friday, May 31, 2013

the test of patience.

One thing I’ve learned in the past year and half is patience. No, I have not mastered the art of patience. I don’t think that’s humanly possible. However, I am a firm believer that God gives us “life lessons” that sometimes require patience.

I entered a new period or chapter (whatever you want to call it) in my life in September 2011. This is when I truly became an adult.

For the first time in my life, I was living completely alone and had to learn how to be independent. Several hours away from what once was all I knew, I had to learn to walk again. I like to think this is when my walk with the Lord truly began. I’m still learning balance and what it means to be an adult. Most of my life, I lived at home with my parents and for almost two years lived with an ex-boyfriend. I feared that I would never get to experience living on my own, but He had other plans.

Since living on my own, I’ve discovered an appreciation of the process of being an adult. You’re forced to learn how to manage money and be independent. This was something I never knew or understood in the past. This whole process required patience. At times, I felt like I had no idea what I was doing. You can imagine what an eye opening experience this has been for me. I love my little apartment, although I’ve yet to really decorate. That could be because I’m rarely home, but it’s mine. Life of a traveling gal. 

I often think about making a house a home with my future spouse one day. Sometimes, it does get kinda lonely living alone, but it’s nice at the same time. I wouldn't take back this experience for anything! I think it's important for everyone, especially women to have the experience of living on their own. This is where that little thing called patience comes in. I feel like God’s working through me and in my life as I continue to grow into the best version of who I am now. I’ve always been told that He will never put a dream in your heart that will not come to past. Sooo until then, I'll continue to be patient and enjoy my little nest. At least, I'll try my hardest. Ha-ha.

So many life lessons. Everyday. You gotta laugh sometimes, but what an amazing teacher we have.


Faith said...

I absolutely loved reading this Ashley! You are so wise!

I agree! Every woman (person) should live on their own if they are able !

Amanda Rose said...

I stayed for the first night alone at my apartment last night! This post rings true!

Amanda Rose

Carla said...

I remember when I first moved out of my parents home. I was 19 years old and my sister, daughter, and I moved into our first apartment. It was pretty great and we managed pretty well. I'd like to think that my parents were proud of us. Then, my sister had her baby and she decided she wanted a place of her own. I thought it was pretty cool to spend time at each other's apartments, sharing each other's spaces.

I've been living on my own for a while now and I can say that it's pretty liberating. There are a few things that I would have done differently, but you live and you learn. I'm still dreaming of that house with the yard and the garage, and it's pretty hard to be patient about things like that. But I guess I have no other choice but to be. LOL!

Ashley said...

agreed! there's something to be said about being a single, independent woman....even though I hope it's temporary, i think it's a great period to have in life!